By: joseph

joseph — Sat, 13 Nov 2010 22:39:31 +0000

Please help if you can;
I’m 56 years-old. In my early to mid childhood I experienced the following events. I am absolutely sure about the ages I give , plus or minus a few months. These events were both physically and emotionally traumatic for me as they involve molestation, but the event all of it eventually lead too was something that was done to me medically, because of a misdiagnosis. Once you read on, you’ll understand.
When I was at between the ages of seven and a half,I, along with another boy, my friend only a few months older than I, were molested together . I am quite sure that prior to this, I was not aware of masturbation, had no interest in my own or anyone else’s privates,etc. Within a year of this happening, I was raped by two teen aged boys, they held me for two hours and the experience was frightening and very ugly.I had never met them before. Because of these events, I went on to become quite active sexually from then on, including masturbation. When I was between the ages of 10 1/2 and 11, I discovered that there were lines (felt like strings to me then) connected to my testes, which I figured were the veins, arteries, etc. I discovered in manipulating my testes one day that there were sort of slots, or slits, on either side of the base of my penis, up where my scrotum joined my body. I soon found that I could easily slip my testes in and out of these slots. My mother walked in on me as I was slipping them in and out. I didn’t know she had noticed my sack was empty, but she must have. Al;l she did at the moment was to chastise me for playing with myself, but a day or two later I found myself at our family Dr. He exposed my privates in front of my mother and began a long examination which no one would explain to me. I was then sent outside his office, something that had never happened before during any of my prior visits. When I was called back in, they told me I was going to receive a series of ten shots. I asked why, but they said not to worry. Every week, I had to go through that embarrassing examination in front of my mother, and the shots were done in my ass. I didn’t learn until years later they treated me for a retractile testicle.
If they had only explained what they were doing, I would’ve told them the whole story. I NEVER would’ve submitted to the shots or the humiliation if they had!
As the shots ended, my life began to go from bad to worse. Already suffering from the molestation and the rape, I suddenly found myself thinking about sex constantly, and became such a constant masturbator I often ended up with friction burns from over doing. My mother never even had the smarts to at least warn me what these shots were likely to do to me!
I’ve heard about reluctance in using hormonal treatments in prepubescent boys; things like sealing growth plates in bones. I’m 3 to 4.5 inches shorter than my three brothers. I cannot grow a full beard. All three of them can. They bulked up fairly well during puberty, I remained quite skinny. They did not begin obvious signs of puberty until 12 or 13. I was able to produce sperm within a few months of turning eleven.
I don’t know the full measure of what these shots did to me, but my life was so messed up from there on, I’d like to know.
Can you help me please?

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